Friday, September 9, 2016

September: UNstuck

a few years ago i felt stuck.
i felt like i had reached the first peak in my life, but when i looked up to the next hill top i didn't feel excited, i didn't feel like what i was aiming for mattered; everything i was striving for felt meaningless. as i sat in a valley, i began to search for meaning. whatever that actually means..

i had graduated college the previous year and immediately started in a job that seemed like it was handed to me straight from God. i had moved into my own little apartment filled with hand-me-downs. i was in a pretty good relationship. i had a cat... life was moving appropriately along this preexisting imaginary dream scale i had in my head. but when i got stuck, i started asking myself questions like, "who came up with this 'American Dream' concept anyway", and "why do i feel so unhappy being right on target at 23", and "is this really it?"

i've always been a dreamer. i've always been the type to look ahead and plan my days and months, organize my year to "maximize my time", and create a 5-year plan in order to get after it, but what i didn't realize was i was forming a bad habit. i'm not saying dreaming and planning are bad because they are absolutely necessary to an extent, but what i am saying is this routine put ME in control, leaving me with a fluctuating self-esteem and an overly idealistic approach to life.

this is about the time when God starting nudging me into a real relationship with him. i'd always "believed" in God. i knew he was "out there somewhere". i'd heard bible stories, and knew who Noah, and Jonah, and Adam and Eve were, but i never understood their significance. i didn't know what "hearing from God" sounded like, or what "seeing God" looked like. but he pursued me in my sin, and in questioning my purpose, he answered me.

Share:
Powered by Blogger.

About Me

About Me
i'm drey. i'm 25. i have two cats; i love to travel, take pictures, walk around antique shops, and eat donuts... and i'm trembling at the feet of my Savior.

Psalm 111:10

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise."

DRESSEMBER

DRESSEMBER
click the picture to help me advocate for those trapped in slavery!

Help End Human Trafficking

Popular Posts

---------------------------------

----------------------------------

Mulling Over My Morning Coffee