Thursday, February 12, 2015

Garden Map

it's saturday morning- i wake up, brew some coffee, admire my cats, kind of dance around my tiny apartment and eventually plop down on my couch.
its february- its indiana- the sun is shining- the birds are singing- and its 45 degrees outside.
i'm studying life patterns; i'm learning what God says about being a busy- body, control freak; and i'm learning what it means to spiritually restIn this, God brings me to Matthew 6, specifically 25-34 where Jesus teaches about worry.

"Therefore I tell you, 
do not worry about your life
what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 
Look at the birds of the air;
they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? And why do you worry about clothes? 
See how the flowers of the field grow. 
They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you- you of little faith
So do not worry
saying " 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, 
do not worry about tomorrow
for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." 

you know those times when we question if the voice we hear is the small voice in our own head trying to justify our actions before we do them, or if its God's, or if its neither.... this was not one of those times. this particular morning, i heard God's gentle commanding voice whisper, "go, look, see."
so you know what i did.... i got up, got dressed, and i went.

look back at v. 26 "look at the birds of the air" and v. 28 "see the flowers of the field grow" with me. 
are you trackin'?!  as i read these verses, first to myself, then out loud, then in another version, i felt God say...literally GO LOOK. so i headed to a place i knew i could be outside to physically be with and in nature (see how God set up this perfect february day for me??)

so what did God reveal to me about worry and rest while i was out at the ima? 
  • worryverb. to give way to anxiety or unease; allow one's mind to dwell on difficulty or troubles.
  • restverb. to cease work or movement in order to relax, refresh oneself, or recover strength
God gives me affirmation that WORRY IS POINTLESS
in Matthew 6:24, we are commanded not to worry... that right there should be enough, but it never is. our human brains are always searching for a reason for everything. when we are told to do something, we don't. when we are told not to do something, we do it. we are weird. 
whats important to remember is that God always has our best interest at his core so when he tells us not to worry, it is to protect us, not just to boss us around. we need to pay attention. 
OUR problem... we think we are our own boss, we've got it covered, we know us better than anyone else, we can do it all, we are super humans, right? we've all been here, or are here, or keep going back here. 
THE problem... this is a vicious cycle that never allows us to stop; this selfless control keeps us from experiencing rest. we run from person to thing to situation to job to event to person to thing..and so on.
we have a problem. 
we worry trying to make our lives come together, but our worry consumes our thoughts & it immobilizes us. it destroys the very thing we are trying to accomplish.
we are restless because we are trying to be our own hero. we ignore God's ability to fill us with the desires of our hearts. we are too busy thinking about ourselves to serve and obey God; too busy to allow him to be the very hero we are trying to be.

Matthew 6:26 says to look up at the birds of the air; they do not save up food, yet God feeds them. 
Matthew 6:28 says to check out the flowers of the field and how they grow, how pretty they are, yet they are not the ones choosing their vibrant colors. 

think back to creation with me. think about the uniqueness of each creature in our world. think about the time and careful consideration each individual living thing required. okay.. so think about your body. think about the way everything inside of you works together to keep you breathing, moving, and thinking. if you're freaked out by all of the body systems like me, then this is truly amazing to you. think about it. God created all living things. he created them very good.

now, think about something you've created. something you weren't forced to make, but something you made because you wanted it, something you were passionate about, something you've cared for. remember all the careful consideration you placed into that piece of work. remember how much emphasis you placed on that individual thing. remember how much you cared for it....did that piece of work ever worry about what color you were going to add to it, or what cloth you were going to pair it with, or what note you were going to play right after? no. no it did not. (and you're probably thinking, that because it is incapable of thinking or feeling, that this is a dumb analogy, but bare with me) yet, this piece was finished and it was good in your eyes.

God created ALL things, the birds and the flowers and us. he is the Creator, we are the created. he tells us that we are "much more valuable" than them though (v.26,30)... why? because we were the ones made in the very image of God, not them. but God knows we are hard to convince and through Matthew, he gives us an example to live by... like the other living things he created (the things that have life figured out because they don't actually have to spend time thinking about it) we can learn from them. God tells us to LOOK at the birds, SEE the flowers and STOP carrying around the burden of worry, the things we do think about constantly, the things that bring us fear and doubt. God invites us to hand them over to him because he already has them handled. we can live freely, knowing our Father will provide for us the things we desire when we serve and obey him.

this is what rest looks like. rest means to trust God, to take on his character as our pattern for living and just BE. we have a fix to our previously mentioned problem. the one that brings us to paralysis, limiting what we do. our help is in resting with God, our Creator, the One who sustains our lives. God knows what we need, and what we desire. He created us after all... so just as you are the artist to your perfect masterpiece, God is the master over his perfectly created art. we ought to stop worrying and give our entire attention over to what he is doing right now.

what does "worrying" say about your faith in God?


1 comment:

  1. audrey, thanks so much for this post. i love you so much and i am glad i got to talk to you on the phone while you were leaving the IMA!

    "God always has our best interest at his core" i love that, because that is WHO God is.

    great reminder and thanks for the encouragement.

    you're the best sister in the world.


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